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2010-04-16T18:21:00.003+08:00

This will be the last post on this blog. I'm changing to TUMBLR because it is fun and blogger's always lagging.
However, this blog will always be here because I've used it for 4 years and I'll be back to read and laugh at some of the things that I did when I was in sec school.
Memories will always be here.
CYA GUYS:D

2010-04-15T00:12:00.001+08:00

Things have changed. Changed after 12 April.

2010-04-07T13:21:00.004+08:00

Looking at myself in the mirror. Wondering why I'm so pathetic.
Get a life SIJIA! Stop crying. Stop worrying about every little thing. Stop thinking about useless things. Get a life. Do what you want. You want to help other people. But how do you help if you are so pessimistic yourself?
Keep yourself busy! Busy! With what? I dunno. Make more friends. How do I do that? Everybody's so busy doing their things. Where are my friends?

SMILE :) Just Smile and everything will be okay!

Will someone just talk to me
I just hope there's someone at home with me.
Talk to me.

2010-04-05T17:02:00.005+08:00

Why is it so bored to stay at home. I do not want school to start either. I hate everything!!!
I hate crying alone at home and you can tell no one. It definitely sucks. Mood swing is here again.
Why is it that I can do it for you and you can't do it for me? Why is it that we're like talking but we're not really talking? Why is it that I am always sad? Why is it that there's always something to make me angry once a day? Why is it that my life is so plain. Why is it that everything just doesnt feel right? Why am I always going to the same place only when Singapore is not that small actually? My life is only Choachukang, Sengkang, Clementi, Redhill? Why is it that my friends are all so busy? When can we ever meet up? When?! Why is it more than a year since I've gone to the beach no matter how many times I say it? Why is school so difficult n far? Why am I always broke? Why is it I don't feel ur support sometimes? Why am I only facing the four walls? Why are happy songs not cheering me up? Why am I so emotional and sensitive? Why do you talk without thinking? Why are you making him sad? Why can't I help? Why am I always in so much pain? What's wrong with my stomach? Where are the gdnight msges? GONE? Why are there so many WHYS?

OK JUST LET ME DIE.
Maybe I just lack that quality.

2010-03-27T12:29:00.001+08:00

No one cares about how I feel.
No one.

2010-03-11T23:29:00.004+08:00

I miss you a lot right now though I just saw you less than 2 hours ago.. Yeah I miss you the moment I am away from you. It's true. I just can't stop thinking about you. ><
Went swimming with darling just now. Swim swim swim! Love swimming :D

Love swimming with darling~ We exercise and have fun at the same time.
Absolutely enjoy wrestling with you in the water LOL your face looks so funny when you are so determined to defeat me :X
I love to play the tickling game with u too. We have so much fun together all the time. =)
But sometimes it really hurts okay!! haha.

I'm not being hua chi here. Just wanna say.
Darling, you kinda look like a bad boy sometimes but actually, you are such a sweet boy. Not boy, MAN. :D So caring, so filial, so adorable. You always smile it over when I ask you stupid questions all the time.

You give me a strong sense of security because I know I can depend on you(not all the time of course). I have to be independent too. You have such a muscular body and strong arms!! Tanned skin! Love leaning on your chest so nice. You just look so good all the time. Love the way you always hold on to me because I'm so blur and clueless sometimes ..

You make me feel loved. You make me melt. You have a cheeky smile :) Your eyes are small but do you know that your eyelashes are actually quite long? I bet you don't! Love looking at you sleep. You are always so natural around me. And that is why I love you with my whole heart.

AND I AM FREAKING HAPPY THAT WE ARE GOING BATAM TOGETHER SOOON!!! ~~~~~
I love you ;)
my fat lips hehe

2010-03-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

I admit I am very sensitive. The little things people say could affect me badly.
I've not enough self confidence. Thats really bad I know. I am trying.

I just want you to know.
I don't expect anything from you. I just want to be with you always.

2010-03-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just don't feel good enough.
People always say " Be more confident! You can do it!".
Well, it isn't as easy as you think it is. One little comment crushes my confidence.
):

2010-02-20T21:19:00.004+08:00

I miss NCHS again.
Secondary school life is just too memorable
I remember:

Our wonderful 4D classroom.
Fun moments with Mel, Bella, Astrid, Nic.H (we seldom meet up now)
Singing on the stage. I will always remember the moment when the audience clapped and cheered so loudly.
Some really sweet moments..
Mel coming to my house and we would do some crazy things and laugh like mad.
Sharing all my secrets with Bel and we'd laugh and cry together.
4d guys and their constant laughter and jokes.
Mr Seah and his saliva shooting gun LOL.
School hall's piano (if you still rmb)
Canteen's wonderful food. CBR

of course, there's much much more that i can't think of right now.
Feeling so... Hais

Oh yes and HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY darling <3
it's actually last Sunday but I've been too busy to update my blog.
you know you mean the world to me (:

2010-02-07T23:23:00.007+08:00

Everyday is a routine.
Maybe life is meant to be like that but I am sick of this.

I want some changes in my life. Will there be?
I don't have any money to make a change.
I just hope my life isn't so boring.

I don't want to meet you every Saturday only.
I hate it. We do the same things over n over again.

I am sad.
Stop.feeling.emo.Er.Si.Jia
I love you

But thanks darling for everything.
I know you cannot control anything, army is like that.
Thanks for always spending your only free days with me. :)
I appreciate that.

2010-02-06T23:54:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I just miss the little things that you would do.
Or say. Or text.

2010-02-02T15:13:00.001+08:00

Falling sick again!!!
Sore throat, flu, feverish, stomachache.
Awww):

BUT ANYWAY
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE HOLIDAY IS COMING!!!
WOOOHOOOOOOO :DDD

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-01-29T22:53:00.005+08:00

I miss my children. );
I'm sad. Last day of attachment.
I miss all of you.

I don't like piercings of any kind except ear.
I mean it.
You know it too.
Why
):
why am I always so emo.

I'm sure you'll think I am crazy.
Why am I always over reacting?
I am not over reacting.

I'M SURE I HAVE MILD DEPRESSION.
IM SURE

2010-01-26T18:22:00.002+08:00

My 552th post. I've been blogging since Secondary 2! Wow :D

OK.

- Menses came. Pimples outbreak.
- Diarrhea. Great man!
- Lotsa work to finish by this week. 1000 words essays n more n more...
- Lesson implementations :S
- Dying of fatigue.
- Just LET me pass this week in the blink of an eye........

I LOVE DARLING
I LOVE MY HAMSTERS
& I can't wait for holidays to come!!!!
I dislike school ):

2010-01-23T13:56:00.006+08:00

Fucking emo. I feel so stressed out by all the work. I want to go out and play and have fun.
Why are there only tears in my bloody life. Happiness is slowly disappearing.
Please let me off.
I fucking hate school right now.
I mean it.
I go to school for the sake of going to school.
I do my work for the sake of finishing it.
I am tired of everything.
Yes I know the holidays are coming. but there's still semester 2 after the holidays.
I do not wish to continue anymore.
Someone knock me awake.
Why do I have this mentality of quitting school?
Of course it's not going to happen. I'm just fking emo.
I still love my children.
But I don't love anything else already.
Poly is just a lie.
I stepped into poly yearning for a nice and good start.
Now I want it to end.
What is wrong with me?
I thought I love school. I thought I love what I'm studying.
I realize I don't.

Well, but I'm still doing work now. I'm crazy.
Doing something I hate. =D
I so totally enjoy it.
Forcing myself to do it.
For?
For fuck
I've never cried so much in my entire life.

2010-01-07T12:05:00.005+08:00

Ok wow. I just realized that I've not blogged for almost 2 months and it's already 2010!
Lol alright actually I know that it's rotting, but I guess I was too busy and too lazy to blog. =x
Just read my blog archives from year 2008 & 2009. Some memories came back to me but I wasn't sad or anything.

I feel really lucky that I met my darling :D Well, I feel that he's the first guy to treat me so well and love me with his whole heart. In past relationships, I can't feel it from the guys. Now, I can feel his genuine love. Muahahaha =D

OH and did I mention I really love looking at him eat? Wow looking at him eat is really an enjoyment. He eats a lot but he's so fit =) hehe. Whenever he eats, I just feel very happy. I don't even know why LOL. There won't be a chance of me wasting food because he'll finish it for me! hahaha. We're always having so much fun and laughters together.
I have a feeling we're going to be together for a long long time :)
I want to be with you forever. I don't believe in forever but I want to believe in it now, because of you.

<3

2009-11-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

I'M GOING CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

FUCK

2009-11-18T20:32:00.001+08:00

one word of console will do.

one word will do.

Yes I've been feeling sad the whole day.
I dunno what's wrong with me.
i feel stressed and stressed

crying doesnt help.

saying more doesnt help

im the one who needs help

2009-11-14T11:37:00.005+08:00

Happy 9 months <3

I've been sick for the whole week, fever, sore throat, cough & diarrhea.
Left eye has been swollen for almost 2 weeks, it heals and swell, heals and swell. Argh!!
And now the worst thing is that I am almost voiceless!

Arghhhhhhhh. I cannot even project a tone properly.
When I talk, my brother say I sound like a bird-.-and he said that we can call the Bird Park management to come and catch me.
When I moan while drinking the bitter herbal tea, he said I sound like a dinosaur.

I told him that when I whisper, my voice sounds normal. He say it still doesn't sound alright and I am already used to it and cannot sing anymore. AH!! I shrieked and he said I sound like a horse. He said I should go to Singapore Zoo. Lol of course, he's just joking. He still made herbal tea for me! Thanksieeeeee kor~

When I'm out ordering food, I have to point to the picture of the food if not the uncle cannot understand me. When I'm taking cab I repeated my destination for like 2 times before uncle can hear me.

I finally understand how it feels like to not being able to express yourself properly! It's really terrrible ):

My darling has been very understanding towards me too. His mom made honey for me. I can only whisper now and my darling is very sweet. He'll come close to me and hear what I've to say and he isn't afraid that I'll spread my cough to him. Making any sound is just so so torturing to me. I love u darling!! So happy that you're back. Hehe.

Mom went to Macau for holiday, before she went she reminded me many times to eat my medicine. Papa will always call and ask if I've eaten my medicine. My friends are all very nice and told me to take care of myself.
I love my family and friends!! :D

Please let me recover fast....

2009-11-03T12:51:00.002+08:00

Darling's coming back soon! =D SoOOOoooooOOOOo excited!!

Anyway my left eye is SWOLLEN. It fucking hurts. Even when I blink, it hurts :( Its totally disgusting. Let it recover fast!!

2009-10-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

They say when you are missing someone, they are probably feeling the same, but I don’t think it’s possible for you to miss me as much as I’m missing you right now.

2009-10-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

好想你，不停止。好想你，我爱你。

2009-10-23T16:51:00.002+08:00

Darling I'm so glad that you called me. I couldn't stop crying I miss you so much.
You mean the world to me. I love you!
I finally know how much I mean to you too (:

2009-10-20T19:33:00.001+08:00

I miss you darling. I will be waiting for you (:

2009-10-14T22:41:00.007+08:00

Happy 8th month together darling!! :D

Darling, you're going to Australia soon for 1 month. I'm gonna miss you like hell I'm sure of that. I can't imagine not hearing your voice for 1 month, except for the voice recording of yours from 8months ago. lol! The one before you went to Brunei (: Whenever I hear it, I will smile like crazy. I listen to it wherever I go, more than a few hundred times I guess :S You know you always make me melt with your cheeky smile n your wink. Whenever I see you, somehow I will transform into a little girl and be so happy and cheerful! Your jokes are always funny to me no matter how lame it is lol. You are so charming and cute & hot hehe.

I love the way you always hold me tight all the time, when we are crossing the road, when we are on the mrt. You will always prevent me from losing my balance. I love your tanned skin and your muscles haha!!! :X I love the way you always say me when I do something blur cause I know you care about me although I get pissed sometimes lol. I just love you so so so much you know? Thanks for always paying for me, bringing me to eat good food & buying things for me.

I never wanna be separated from you. You are damn important to me. I love you and I know you love me too!! =D

This is the present that Darling made himself for my birthday!! It's our photo and beautiful decorations around it in a photo frame. It's on my shelf!! <33

Anyway, time flies like a rocket, I can't believe it's been almost 1 year since Olevels ended. I still remember how we go to night study everyday, all the valuable memories. I really miss nchs. Poly life can never be compared to Secondary school life. In poly, you walk past strangers everyday because there are too many students. In sec sch, we bond and have fun all the time, u walk past different classes but they are all your friends and familiar faces. Ok what I really wanna say is, I wanna meet up with my besties who are studying very hard for their promos right now. I ALSO WANNA HAVE A CLASS OUTING SOON !! CHALET would be better :DD
I miss MEL & BEL :(

School's starting soon :(

2009-10-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

On 19th oct, school is reopening and darling's going on an army trip.
I don't want my darling to go Australia for 1 month :(
I totally dread that day coming.
sigh..
However, I'm gonna treasure all the time I have with you, even if its only a few days.
I love you.

I'm going to work very very hard for the next semester. I am very motivated right now!! (:

2009-10-02T12:42:00.002+08:00

" It is often hard to fall asleep again after a nightmare. The mind may still be actively involved in the events that have caused fear and the sudden wakening. Recurrent nightmares may make the sufferer fearful of falling asleep and cause anxiety and other sleep problems. "

Yeah this is what's happening to me! I don't wanna have nightmares anymore. I cannot sleep well at night, I'm afraid of closing my eyes. Someone save me?

And.. I don't understand why some of the people say I think too much. I didn't think about it during daytime but the nightmares are just haunting me. Argh

:( Hi dark eye circles... My new found bff. Zzzz

2009-10-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, we tend to get curious about some things. We'll ask and in the end, know the truth. I've learnt that knowing some things aren't good at all as it'll hurt us in the most unexpected way. I do not want to know about this at all, but I just can't seem to think about it.

I REALLY REGRET KNOWING IT. Remove it from my brain please. ):

Heart's rly pain. Hais. Why can't I just forget it & get on with my bloody life. This happened so long ago already. Zzzzzzzzzzz fuck.
I said I'll forget but it seems impossible and I'll be constantly reminded of it.
Well, I can forget... only if I lose my memory I guess?

Argh Er Si Jia I hate you!! :'(

2009-09-29T21:29:00.015+08:00

Alright. Now I'm going to upload pictures of my new hamster babies.
Berry mommy did a great job!! :D
I guess Choco papa doesn't know that he has 4 new babies!! Lol Choco's just lazing around in another tank coz we have to separate papa from the babies, if not he will eat it up -.-
Hard to believe that such innocent n creatures eat up their babies right? But well, they do! So we must be careful !

Aren't they so adorable? Piled up together :D Awww.. Well they're not fully developed yet. Have to wait around 2 weeks before their hair will grow. Hehe! I'm so excited!! Berry mommy hid them in the rocket 'toilet' so as to not anybody touch her babies! 母爱真伟大！

This was taken yesterday, we thought she only gave birth to 2 babies but today it became 4 !!

I remember when my brother first bought choco n berry. They were still 2 months old then! Now they've become parents!! Haha <33

Little berry then.

Look at how choco is crossing his leg while sleeping. tsk tsk tsk. berry giving birth he still so relaxed .... guys ah...

Fat fat choco! Totally oblivious to the fact that he has become a daddy. Tsk tsk tsk. Still sleeping like an angel :D
Okay... Now I'm going to show you guys other pics that was taken in a petshop at Suntec! Haha hamsters & rabbits xD

Omg totally cute right all piled up together and awwwww see that cute little hamster over there!! Haha.

And this rabbit which looks like a cow! LOL :D But, it's still adorable (:

Hehe and a few random pictures of me & darling :D

Taken in his condo's lift (:

Mwas I love you :D

2009-09-25T18:49:00.007+08:00

大家好，我发现我很久没接触华文了，所以在此我打算用华文来简述这几天发生的点点滴滴。华文是华人的母语，我们不能失去我们的根源。在义安理工学院里，大多数的人都是用英语和朋友，老师沟通。我要提醒每个华人，要饮水思源。

我生日的前几天，都是 Mr. Chee Zhi Guang 在陪我。你对我好好！宝贝我爱你! :D 谢谢你花那么多时间在我身上。我知道当兵很辛苦，很累，可是别担心，我会一直在你身边照顾你，呵护你，爱你。

我生日当天，因为临时发生了一点小事，所以和朋友们的约会取消了。最后，我的表妹到我家和我一起庆祝我孤独的生日。好谢谢你，Cherylene tan!! 谢谢你陪我，永远的好姐妹~ lots of love (: 我爱你！明天又要见到你了xD

昨天，我和我的理工学院朋友们去庆祝我的生日。他们自己亲手做了一个草莓口味的蛋糕，给了我一个非常完美的惊喜。我那时的心情真是非笔墨所能形容的。我们也拍了许多的照片，那是充满欢乐的一天。非常感谢你们的诚意，我好感动：D Thank you Iris, Cynthia, & Ilysa.

好了，没什么好说的了，在此停笔。感谢全部对我给予生日祝福的朋友们，希望你们能永远快乐，无忧无虑。（：
忽然之间，我好想念站在台上唱歌的滋味。。

p.s. lim ying ting, waiting for u to come back! :D

2009-09-23T00:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME <33

2009-09-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

My birthday's coming sooon, but I'm not in the mood.
Partly because darling cannot celebrate my bday with me on the actual day, and im eating lunch & dinner myself tomorrow :(

but darling thanks a lot for accompanying me these few days. I love you mwas <3

2009-09-18T23:41:00.001+08:00

My arms hurt like MAD.
:(
Applied medicine. Still aching.
Life ROCKS

Aching everywhere, cui day. Tired ):

2009-09-14T13:27:00.000+08:00

Blogger sucks!!!
I wanted to dedicate this entry to my darling coz today is 14th of september. We've been together for 7 mths! :D
I wanted to put many pictures up but Blogger has ruined my idea.
Zz nvm I shall do it next time :D

Love you darling! U make me melt all the time <3

2009-09-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

I guess its pre-menstrual severe mood swings.
ARGH

2009-09-13T15:38:00.000+08:00

Darling I miss youuu!
My birthday's coming very sooooon :D hehe

You melt me aww I love you(:

2009-09-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

Every minute I spend waiting for your sms is a torture.
Sometimes I wonder why am I such a worry freak? Why can't I calm myself down and do my own things peacefully? Why will I walk and pace around like an idiot? I tried, I tried to do other things to stop myself from behaving like a freak.
I guess I'm still haunted by the past. Another person's actions resulted me in behaving this way right now, of course I'm a worry freak by nature.
AND YEAH the person who triggered my worrying nature is MY EX.
SO now I worry over little things, my heart's always like going to explode.
Why is every minute passing so slowly?
I wanna sleep peacefully. But I cant.
SO THE TRUTH IS IM A FKING WORRY FREAK.

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Does anybody even knows how I feel?!!!
Im a fucking weak person fucking weak.

2009-09-10T21:09:00.002+08:00

I'M SO SICK OF IT. WHY CAN WE ONLY MEET ON EVERY WEEKEND.
I feel so fking terrible inside.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
and I'm drinking this disgusting bitter medicine I'm going to puke soon. Argh

I still CANT stop thinking abt that pair of white wedges :{

I wonder... if anyone will remember my birthday?

2009-09-10T13:50:00.000+08:00

I saw a wonderful pair of wedges at Plaza Sing yesterday and I WANT IT SO MUCH!!!!
Anybody wanna buy it for my birthday?? hhahahaha! -.-

Darling I miss you today's ur last day of outfield. Faster msg me!!!

2009-09-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

I love you darling (:
I love it that you always make me feel so protected with your strong arms, always prevent me from falling down, always holding on to me tight.
Faster book out!! :D

2009-09-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

Just came back from a Storytelling session by Roger Jenkins because it's the Singapore Storytelling Festival ! Haha I totally enjoyed myself. Everything was just awesome! :D
It was so interesting and hilarious. He tells a story on the spot by the ideas given by audience. Not everybody can do that.

Aww and my darling just sent me a duper sweet sms awwwwww <3
I LOVE YOU!! Mwaas~
Faster book out I miss you so much!

2009-09-01T14:20:00.003+08:00

Went back to NCHS yesterday! Was SUPER DUPER HAPPY to see MEL & BELLA :DD
I really love and miss you two alot <33
Almost cried because I was too touched but I controlled my tears hehe. Saw some teachers but I didn't see Mr Eric Koh & Mr Tan Hwa Ngee :(

After everything ended, some of us from 4d'o8 went to Dhoby Exchange for JustAcia. I love my Tomyum soup! Its so nice, many of them think so too hehe. We went to watch movie afterwards. I watched a M18 show!! hhahaa im not even 17 yet ~~ Proud of myself! :D
Well, of course I cannot say out how we managed to watch The Last House on the Left. hahaa~
Movie ended and we walked around plaza sing, talked to my friends. I totally enjoyed myself.
I want more 4d gatherings! :D

Ok and I cannot upload pictures I dunno why zz STUPID blogger.

2009-08-29T00:16:00.002+08:00

Maybe I should go back to work.. Sigh. Papa I love you!

I hate what I'm feeling right now. Why do I feel so bu shuang? I really wanna talk to u peacefully and happily but I cant seem to do that. Why does one simple sentence affects me so much? Why does it make my heart feel so sour? Argh

2009-08-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

Darling I really miss you so so much. I know it's not your fault that you're in army but I feel so lonely sometimes. How I wish you can meet me whenever possible. Seeing you once a week seems alright to me from last time up till now but... I guess its just the holidays. I feel that I have no life. Facing my lappy all day, reading storybooks, watching TV, playing with my hamsters, cooking instant noodles. How boring can it get..

I MISS YOU SO FKING MUCH. I feel so bloody frustrated. And 2 months later, you're going Australia for three weeks. How wonderful is that.

and whats the fking problem with FB & Blogger? Wheres the icons for changing fonts? Wtf

Can somebody ask me out and PLAY? I NEED LOUD MUSIC BLASTING INTO MY EARS.

I really hate the fact that I can only meet you ONCE A WEEK.

2009-08-27T13:47:00.000+08:00

HULA everybody I'M BACK!!
I know my blog has officially rotted for the previous months :S
I guess nobody reads it anymore but I'll still post because I have all the time in the world right now. My 2mths long holiday started 2 days ago and I am rotting everyday.

My bloody laptop FUJITSU L1010 is giving me lots of problems I FEEL LIKE killing it.
I will definitely COMPLAIN to FUJITSU! Lol I've been complaining a lot lately hehe feel so auntyish. I dont want to work during the holidays also but my parents are forcing me to work zzzz I just want to slack whenever I can. However, I want and need money to shop. sian~

and I accidentally deleted my friends' bloglinks. Those names who start with 'N - Z'. Im so sorry people..

I miss you so much darling.

2009-07-19T23:15:00.001+08:00

I always yearn to come to you, be with you, connect with you, unite with you, merge with you.
I always love to nurture you, nourish you, meet your needs, feed your hungers.
I will always cherish you, treasure you, adore you.
I aways want to be yours,
always.

2009-07-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

Sick of everything in life.
Don't look forward to school anymore.
I need a punching bag to let out all my emotions.
I miss 4d.
I miss you like fk.

I HATE PROJECTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

2009-06-25T23:52:00.001+08:00

:((((((((((((((((((((
hais

I love my hamsters

2009-06-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

I love 4d'o8 to the max.
I miss 4d'o8 to the max.
4d makes me feel at ease.
I love singing with teng brian & xavier.
I'm an emo freak.

YEAH!
:DD

Love is like a flower. During summer it blooms. When it reaches winter, it withers.

2009-06-07T00:04:00.003+08:00

Si Jia is freaking upset that she got a C for ITA just because she didn't go for the presentation as she was not feeling well that day and she didn't get a fking MC to prove to her fking teacher.

Si Jia is disappointed that she got a B+ instead of an A for her STB test.

Si Jia is terribly sad that she's so emo this few days and she don't understand why she's so blur and stupid and irritating sometimes. She doesn't want to be like this but she can't help it. She doesn't want history to repeat itself.

Si Jia misses 4D'o8 and all her friends.

I love you more than anything else <3

2009-05-28T23:38:00.003+08:00

Just a smile melts me.
Thats what the kids from CCDC are able to do.
I'm gonna miss them so much after attachment ends :(

Just came back from Cynthia's hse a few hours ago. Had lotsa fun and laughed like crazy during the slpover! Love you guys! :D Finished our project too (:

I miss my friends from NCHS argh :(
There's really many many projects n assignments nowadays.
And I rly hate that NP is so far away from my hse zzzz.

cant wait to see you every weekend.
mwas ilu <3

2009-05-12T18:59:00.014+08:00

Firstly, I wanna thank everybody who made me so happy this few days!
1) My boyf
2) 4d peeps
3) T03 peeps
4) Cousins & Family
5) The kids from Cedan Child Development Centre

9 May
Went out with bf to AMK hub. We went to watch the movie ' Taken'. GREAT movie!!
Bought mothers' day presents with my dearie for both his mom and my mom.
Both our moms were very happy (:
hehe finally got to see ALISHA darling after a few weeks.
She's so damn cute!!

10 May
It's Happy Mothers' day!!
Went to grandma house with all my cousins & relatives!
We each cooked a dish for our mothers. They were all super duper happy and the meal was damn nice!!! I cooked lotus root soup :D
Played with my dear chewii LOVE HER. she's so cute.
I love you mommy! Really hope you like our present :)

11 May
This day was supposed to be a holiday for students but NOT for us poly students.
UNFAIR!!! But nvm luckily monday's a very short day for my class.
T03 went to sentosa after that. Actually only 8 of us went but nvm it was still a nice outing :D
After that they went to watch movie at Vivo while I travelled back to CP KFC to meet my 4d'o8 classmates!! MISS THEM lots.
The first person whom I saw was BRIAN and he gave me a big shock!!
I seriously didnt know he became botak lol~
Many ppl came afterwards, I'm really happy cuz although its already May, 4d peeps can still click so well! Saw Astrid too in CP toilet!! Ahh so happy haha! I missed u so much!
4D rocks! We took alot of photos which are all in facebook :D

Me, Iris & Gabriele !

From left to right: Yvonne, Teanna, Sheryl, Me, Sheryl, Alison

Brian the egghead!!! :D

Teng teng!! :D

ALI babaaba~

My kor forever :)

Melvin with his low v-cut hahhaha

:DDDDDDD

Daniel acting cool LOL

Xavier :D

12 May
Saw Bella early in the morning!! :D so happy! missed u so much my dear bel.
Went to Cedan Child Development Centre for my 2nd attachment today.
Saw Little Ashton and his uber cute, handsome, innocent face. He smiled at me!!
He's only 20 mths old!! He melts me ~ hahaa!
How I wish i can take a photo of him but we are not supposed do that.
I'm glad the K2 children can still remember my name! Teacher Si Jia! hahaha :DDDD
AND I can already remember all their names! By the 2nd session!! Pro ba xD
It's so interesting looking at them learn, they just made my day.
I love ECH!! Love field practicum!!
But at the same time, I can see alot of assignments flying towards me. Awww :(

All I wanna say is, I'm very happy with my life now (:
& there's Snw tomorrow! Hahaha!! SnW = Laughing Session.
T03 peeps are so fun to be with too!

2009-05-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

2009-04-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

3 more days <3
EXCITED!

& mommy take care!
I love you :)
Thanks for taking care of me so well !

2009-04-25T14:30:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a long long day.
I was so exhausted the whole day.
In the morning, T03(my class) was supposed to meet in NP at 8am for bfast.
Set my alarm at 53o am but I couldn't wake up. Was really tired.
I'm sorry.

I woke up at 12 plus today. Wow lol
Tiring week that's all I can say.
Assignments slowly coming up... And soon honeymoon period would be over.
But, I love my class!! :D

cyaaaaaaa
lookin forward to SnW and Friday <3

and why do I have to live so far away from NP?
1h45mins .
great man :(

2009-04-24T08:56:00.001+08:00

3 weeks is so long! :(

7 more days and you'll be back.
mwas (:

2009-04-22T20:31:00.006+08:00

I miss you so much :((((
The feeling of missing someone is just so terrible.
8 more days and you'll be back :)

Anyway school started on monday.
I really love Ngee Ann Poly! :D
It's a great school with both great recognition and great teachers.
My teachers are all so sweet and humorous. I guess partly it's because they are Early childhood educators so they can really speak well and not offend anybody unlike some teachers in NCHS. I think you know who I'm referring to. Haha ;)

Started on Principles and Practices of Classroom Management today.
Attitude towards children is very important because they learn & absorb the most at this period of time.
I guess some people nowadays are more insensitive because people didn't talk nicely and politely to them when they were young. It really shapes their personality.

Miss Lucy told us we must:
1) Suggest rather than insult.
2) Nurture constructive feedback.
3) Motivate, encourage and learn how to praise.
I think what she said is so right. People will only treat us nicely when we talk nicely to them.
We must say things in a positive manner so that nobody will get hurt.

I really love the fact that I'm in HMS, most importantly ECH.
The people from Humanities school are all so polite and thoughtful. I think that's what makes us unique. Some people may have brains, but they do not have character. Unlike students & teachers in HMS, we make a difference in other people's lives by helping them.
Met new friends and they are all very friendly and smiley! :)

And yes although I really love NP, I HATE MY LAPTOP.
My laptop is so beautiful and I love the garskin.
But it is so freakingg heavy! 2.5 kg!!!
And I must climb the slope everyday to get to HMS :(

I injured my hand yesterday while carrying it and another book(which is the same weight as my lappy) for almost 5 hours. So I'm like carrying a sack of rice around! When I got home, my hands were so weak and painful. I can feel the pain even when I'm walking, bathing, moving my hands. Each and every small little actions add up to the pain.

My mom helped me massage my arms (thanks mommy ILU!!) and she said its swollen. wtf :( And it is STILL very pain now. Ahhhhhhh and there's bruises too.

Anyway, I joined The Adventure Seekers with Yingting!
Heard it's a Cca with many members, more than 200. haha
But most importantly, I want to participate in more outdoor activities.
I guess it's a whole new change for me (:
There will be a bbq for us this Friday evening organised by my cca. Hope to meet more new friends :D

Takecare ppl !! (:

2009-04-15T22:47:00.007+08:00

Went to NP today for Humanities School talk.
I think I kinda enjoyed myself, especially during the inspirational talk.
- Leave your marks on the most impressionable years of education.
I want to make a difference in children's lives.
Yeah I will ! :D

Yes and I'm proud to be in the Top-Choice Poly in Spore!
YAY NP NP NP :D
Kinda excited about school, new environment, new friends, new form of education :)
But at the same time I miss NCHS too.

That's why I'm going back to school tomorrow with Yingting & Huiyee to have our CBR :D
Going back to NCHS on friday as well for our School Anniversary.
Yeah I'm gonna see all my JC friends!! - Mel, Bel, Astrid, Nick & more!
hahahahaha I'm damn happy n excited!
NCHS is just too important to me.
Well I had so much great memories in that school (:

I've experienced great friendship, love, disappointment, betrayal, and so much more..
I guess I've grown up bit by bit.
Although I've been let down time n time again, I still believe that there will be somebody out there who won't disappoint me.

One week ago at this very specific time, I'm accompanying Ahfat to the airport.
I remembered how he suddenly laughed at Penelope Cruz's poster.
I found no reason for him to laugh at such a beautiful woman.
Apparently, it was something very lame lol
Hahah you're so cute!
16 more days to seeing you. (:

& I feel so sad when I see girls heartbroken. I can totally understand how they feel.

2009-04-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

Happy 2 months to us! :)
Though you're far away in Taiwan, my heart is still with you.
Mwas I love you.
I miss you!

2009-04-13T23:12:00.007+08:00

In life, some of our friends will be by our side for a very long time.
Some are and would always be just hi-bye friends.
But I didn't expect you to be one of those hi-bye friends because I really treated you as a very very good friend.

A very good friend whom I would confide in.
A very good friend who cheers me up when I'm sad.
We spent time laughing, playing, joking around.
We were always there for you too.

But what about now?
We seriously don't know what happened to you.
Why are you so cold to us recently?
Is replying on Msn so difficult?
Is replying a short sms so difficult?

Obviously to you, new friends have taken over the roles of us.
I'm seriously disappointed in you.

I dread walking past you in NP.
I don't want to acknowledge the fact that we're drifting apart.

We rly miss you.

2009-04-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU :)
my dearie has gone to Taiwan :(
I'll see you on 1st May.
Mwas :D

2009-04-03T22:39:00.012+08:00

There's Suntec Health Fair on both tomorrow & sunday and the working hours are freaking damn long.
Awwwwww I'm gonna be so so so exhausted.
Come to think of it, I didn't really enjoy my holidays.
I'm just workin and workin all day long :(

I only have less than one week to enjoy before POLY starts!
NOOOOOOOO!!!!

:( I WANNA REST.
I NEED SLEEP~~~~~

I wish I have more time.
More time to play, sleep, relax, meet up with all my loved ones especially my bf .

:'(

I MISS U so much.
I know you can't spend so much time with me cause you're in NS.
But sometimes I reallyy wish we had more time together.

5 more days & you'll be going to Taiwan.
How am I gonna survive this long torturing 24 days?

CHEER UP MY DEAR MELISSA CHENG YEE LING!
Bff ! <3

2009-04-02T23:44:00.003+08:00

I am one big irritating silly PERSON who bullshits all the time and make people FRUSTRATED & fked up.
YES just HATE ME.
Why do I talk so calmly even when I'm angry?
I wanna know how to talk back.
I NEED SOME PRIDE.

argh fk

crybaby STOP your tears.
now.

2009-03-26T00:36:00.003+08:00

Watched Departures with dear Ahfat today.
It was a great show, both touching and realistic.
It teaches us to respect each profession.

But most importantly, it moved me to tears.
Its a must-watch kind of movie! :D
HIGHLY recommended !!

K im getting real tired...
Im going to NCHS to get SGC and eat CHEESE BAKED RICE with yingting & huiyee tmr!!
WOOOTS :DDD
but I have to go work after that though :(

From this moment, you are the one.

2009-03-17T23:07:00.008+08:00

Seriously I cant wait for poly to start!
This holiday is too longg and Im really sick of working every weekday!
:( I WANT SCH TO START LIKE TMR?!
zzzzzzz.

And I miss 4d alot alotttt.
I want to go back NCHS and have lessons. But I guess we jus have to move on.
i'll remember the good old memories. Life is always about parting.

Anyway I spent ALOT of money recently. Went shopping w YINGTING tdy wheeee ahaha. I really love shopping but i hate spending money. ok thats lame -.- And im gradually getting used to the bloodily expensive bus fare already. Time is all I need.....

I WANT TO SEE YOU AHFAT I MISS YOU !
I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU.
i really miss you.

and i neeeda wake up early tmr morning again because there's work.
sobssssss

2009-03-15T15:47:00.007+08:00

Ok its been a very very very longgggggggg time since i've last logged in to my blogger acc.
I've been very busy with Taiwan trip, working, going out.

Yesterday was our ONE MONTH ANNI <33

I love you Chee Zhi Guang!
Although you're in NS and we only meet once a week, I really dont mind.
I wont run away or anything. I treasure the short time we have every weekend.
Can only meet you 2 weeks later :(
And you're going to Taiwan for 3 wks during april. Sigh

And i miss all my frens too! esp 4d peeps.
There's gonna be a 4d outing this sat !
Yippee!! :D cant wait.

Taiwan trip was fun and enjoyable.
Nth to post alr -.-
BYES LOVE YA PPL.

2009-02-19T10:48:00.001+08:00

"BECAUSE I'M A GIRL" by: Kiss
English Version Lyrics

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again
(REFRAIN)
(CHORUS)
I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me
Into the night

I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me soI just can't let you go
You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love

Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away
Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

i love the korean version :D
nice song although its very old already.

2009-02-15T13:07:00.002+08:00

(29-35 points)
You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

imu.

2009-02-08T16:22:00.004+08:00

So, ytd I went out with Yingting, Xavier & Wilson Teo.

We didnt manage to find more 4d peeps to go out with us :(

Ate lunch at cp.

Took the mrt to Dhoby Ghaut.

The mrt fare was freakin ex!!

We watched The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.

The whole show lasted for 166 mins. omg right

But i personally think its a very nice n touching movie, with goodlooking casts.

Brad Pitt ! lol

Its highly recommended though we sat the front seats and our necks almost broke.

This movie is about a man who is born in his eighties and ages backwards: a man, like any of us, who is unable to stop time.

Cool storyline!

But rmb to buy a good seat. :)

The funniest part would be about the guy who kept on telling Brad Pitt over the years that he was struck by lightning 7 times. The short clips were hilarious hehe

den we took the mrt back from Dhoby Ghaut to Sk and the fare was $1.57 !

Its so ex I want the student price!!!! :(

arghh.

I cant wait for school to start. life is boringgg.

- Don't let anyone tell you different. You got to do what you're meant to do.

2009-02-04T15:50:00.009+08:00

I'm very bored right now.

So.......................................

I've decided to post pictures of my deardear a few yrs ago :D

he's my cousin anyway :)

Whee happy baby!

heee so cute :D

cute right.... of course!

heee i love babies and children so much la.

I WANT ONE I WANT ONE! :(

I cant wait for poly to start!

I cant wait to see all the kids! hehe.

One smile and my heart melts :)

Early Childhood Education! Here im coming!!!!!!

& i cant wait for u to come back.

You Are a Strawberry

You are friendly, outgoing, and well liked by many people.
You are popular, but there's nothing you ordinary or average about you.

You a very interesting person, and you have many facets to your personality.
Sometimes you feel very conflicted. Your different sides of your personality pull at you.

You are a very sensual and passionate person. You are fiery... you can't help it.
In general, you keep your passionate side under wraps. You are only wild in private.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

2009-02-01T14:12:00.007+08:00

Suddenly, I'm filled with emotions.
I really miss NCHS, every corner of the school. The toilet where we spent much time combing our hair lol, the canteen where we ate our wonderful Wanton Mee & Chicken Rice, blah blah. But most importantly, my always noisy classroom :D And my wonderful classmates & teachers!

I really miss the fun times in 4D. Our class was so called the naughtiest Express class since Sec 3. Nevertheless, all of us clicked well. Maybe thats cause we love to play so much all the time xD
We're famous for copying homework too I guess, even the teachers know it. I guessed at that time they think we wont make it for Os. But we still made it, with grades that were much better than everyone expected. Love 4D'o8 !

I'll start with thanking the teachers first.

Mdm Tan Yih Tyan - Miss Tan! Im so not used to calling her Mdm Tan because she's not married yet when she taught me in Sec 1. She taught me English for 3 yrs! Thats so long haha.
She's a really pretty, sweet and cute lady. She's very kpo sometimes about our personal life but thats rly cute haha. She loves to gossip with us too!

Mr Tee Hongwei Jason - Every Girl's Dream. haha! ok not every girl. But at least to me, yingying, mel and somemore out there who secretly admires him. His features really handsome ok! AND im very honoured to be his geography rep! hahahaha but too bad. he's attached to miss joseph, not that im in love with him or what la :D

Mr Eric Koh - MrKoh is one hilarious teacher. His jokes nvr fail to make my day :D Thanks to him my maths improve alot! I always fail my maths last time. Thanks MrKoh :)

Mr Tan Hwa Ngee - Mr Tan is a teacher who looks like 马英九. HAHA age also around the same. He only teach me maths awhile but he always help anyone who needs help in Maths. Esp during night study. Thank you Mr Tan! You're always so fatherly and patient. His wife and kids are so lucky! :D

Mr Seah - My SS teacher. He's a very blur guy who makes us laugh all the time. He loves to tell us his story as he've been to many countries before. Thanks for always printing extra copies of SS notes for us. I think i have 5-6 pieces of every essay lol. And thanks alot for meeting up with us even on weekends to teach us. Thanks alot!

Ok now to my wonderful friends :)

Melissa Cheng Yee Ling!
MELLY! I will always rmb how we met n become best friends.
' Delivery for the Siamese Twins! ' :D Thats my stageline during sec 1 orientation camp. In the end when i went up on stage, i pronounced as ' Devilery ' wth lol embarrassing. But thats how we became friends! cause i was rehearsing for you to hear. And you know what? You're such a sweet n lovely girl with such a kind heart. You will be really successful nxt time cause u're a v hardworkin person! Love ya melly! Rmb you must be my baby's GAN MA next time!!

Annabella Aung!
Bellu! know u wont want me to write down ur chinese name :D still rmb HCR 5.51? hahaha i think only we know ba. thats us when we were in sec 2. I will always rmb the video of us walkin along the sch corridors lol. so funny! :D we nvr fail to share all our secrets. Crying while hugging each other n everything. I can tell u anything. Love ya bel ! last long w him ya. You are a really pretty and strong girl :)

Lim Ying Ting!
Babyyyyyy! haha. my closest friend in 4d! we love to gossip all the time hahah. u're a rly humorous girl ok. But rly thanks for always being there for me. I love to go crazy with u! lol
and do all the stupid faces. And yes like what lik said, you're really growing prettier n prettier over the yrs :D so yes i hope we'll go np tgt !and still see each other everyday wheeeeee. Love ya BABY!

Nicholas Ho Yao Jie!
Hey kor! You're the first guy up here. We've known each other for 4 yrs alr. You've always been very nice to me. I feel very safe around u. I've seen u grown from my height to 175 cm now haha. I always call you for nothing and u'll listen to all my crap and nonsense. But thanks rly for always being thr for me whenever im sad. You're rly like my real brother. Love ya kor :D and thanks for singing for me too :)

Chang Lik Zhing!
Hey ya stupid likky lol you're the second guy! This guy? He's full of crap hahaha jk. He likes to suan me short all the timeeee! ROAR! But i know u are just joking :) ok but i admit i do get pissed sometimes lol. But we tell each other secrets, he's jus like my jiemei u know. and we have fun when we're tgt esp with limyingting. yes and u're my np mate too! that means we'll still get to see each other in np for 3 more yrs. OMG -.- u good la move to jurong lol. now ur sch is the nearest to u ! :D

Astrid Wong Siew Me!
Hey MEME. my singing buddy for so many yrs. We've known each other from Pri 3. Thats really long ok haha. U crazy girl always doing all sorts of stupid actions haha! but thats the reason why we click. cause im also like that heee. I really hope we wont drift apart! coz we must be jie bai jie mei ! Love ya !

Nicholas Wong Zhao Hu!
Hey nicholas! i just wanna say u're a really great friend. i always thought u were a very cold person until i hang out with u all. Actually u're a really warm and caring person.
Im really glad to have known u during the last few mths of sec4. Thanks for listening to my troubles all the time! Smile more ok!! coz u look great when u smile :)

Leong Hui Yee!
Ah Yeeeee!!! hahaa the future psychologist. I always confide in her and she always give me great suggestions. Huiyee is a great girl la. I'll definitely marry her if im a guy >.< color="#339999">Lim Tee Ping!
Hey pingping! I love the times when we sit together during sec 2 in class. You always appear so blur n everything. But u got 6A1s for Os and im very very proud of u. He's a very blur but extremely cute guy. He's always so innocent and easygoing. U must learn how to be fierce sometimes ok teeping! :D friends for life :)

Ho Jack Hon!
Hey jackhon!! u and teeping are always hanging out tgt jus like twins. and i've sat with both of u in class during sec 2 also. hahaha u're a really humorous guy la. but also very innocent like teeping O_O haha! We must not drift apart alright. The 4 of us must meet up whenever we can! You, Teeping, Me and Melly ! friends for life! :D lets go yuki yaki n fry icecream tgt again!

Alison Tan Yi Bing!
Hey ali! Our class chairman. The hardworking girl who top almost all the subjects in our class. haha you rly know how to study hard n play hard at the same time. Wish u all the best in ur life ahead! :D stay cute too.

Ker YingYing!
Hey yingying. I nvr fail to laugh with u around. U will always say smth funny out of a sudden and make us laugh. Congrats for getting into nyjc with ali n yv :D and lets go back to see Mr Tee one day tgt! haha takecare always :)

Wilson Teo Wei Sheng!
Hey 182! haha thats ur height in sec 3. Guess u're around 185cm now lol. So tall la!! I always ask him how it feels like being tall and he'll give me the lame face hahaha. Wilson is another great guy who always offer to help me carry things. Cause he's big n strong! lol. And yeah he also taught me alot of maths during Olvl period. Thanks so much!

Tay Chun Feng!
He's my another kor. But i seldom call him that haha. He loves to bully me lor! lol jk. he can be very nice at times but he loves to act fierce. One big Ahbeng last time but he's so sensible right now. He also got good results for Os :D You're a very confident and charismatic guy. Good for u. Hope u'll be successful in ur life ahead!

Xavier Huang Zhen Hao!
Hey xaviery! haha you're the other one whom i've seen u grow. From my height to 170 cm! :D ok la im the only who didnt grow sobs :( lol. U ah! dont always everything also ' dno'. I know u are a great guy :D we always have fun tgt. You're a rly helpful guy too. I hope we will still keep in touch ok xavier. Friends forever!

Wilson Teng Ming Xiang!
Hey Teng! haha. Teng is a guy that's so similar to teeping. Cute n innocent n blur. But they always do so well in their academic results. haha. Really enjoyed the times when we sat tgt in 4D. You always teach me maths n science whenever im stuck. Thanks alot ! :D u're such a kind and hardworking guy. But dont be too shy when u meet new friends ya! Great guy. Friends forever :D

Brian Sng Wen Hao!
Hey Bri-an! Brian is a very funny guy who makes me laugh all the time. I guess nobody would feel sad around him. He loves to sing with Teng loudly wherever they go. Haha! And both of them have great voices too :D i really enjoyed hanging out with u all. Brian can be funny but serious at times too. Good luck brian! Hope you have a bright future ahead :D

Lim Huah Yun!
Hey! lol huahyun is a funny girl too la. She's famous for her laughter LOL. And she can laugh for very very long. And i know u love to touch my head coz its round -.- Takecare always ya :D and dont laugh too much!! rofl

Melvin Yap Jun You!
Yo 183! haha thats ur height during sec3. i know u're 185cm now. Why do I have soo many tall friends when im short? lol xD Melvin is a very nice and easygoing guy. We all know that but Melvin, you ought to know that too! Be more confident of urself eh? haha! friends forever :D

Puah Ee Chen!
Hey eechen! :D She looks rly cute and sweet just like a dollie. And she's also one whom i can confide in. Overall she's jus a rly great person with great personality! haha wishing u all the best in ur future! dont drift apart ya :D

Ok thats all i can think of for now. Will post somemore nxt time :D
And good luck to all my friends who's starting JC tmr!
Love ya all ~

2009-01-31T16:35:00.000+08:00

2 weeks

2009-01-24T23:57:00.003+08:00

Hula everybody.

suddenly I miss all my friends alot. I wonder how our world would be like without friends?
Thanks to ALL of you who made an impact in my life.
:)

FriendsForLife.

& i love this blogskin! cause its pink and white. my FAV colour. SWEET and SIMPLE :D

2009-01-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

19 - 21 January 2009

4D'o8 Chalet

I met lik and teng at cp. We went to eat lunch and took 159 to meet other 4d peeps at hg point. Bought all the necessities for chalet. Including the mighty 3M mosquito repellent!!!! thanks wilsonteo for buying it! lol its rly useful.

we reached the chalet at around 4 plus. yingying n me helped to clean the whole hse, sweeping and mopping the double-storey chalet, of coz with some help from lik and brian! it was tiring and almost drained all my energy away. Thanks to the three of u :)

i rly appreciated that cause most of them were sitting around slacking.
no offence though! haha
we slacked, gossiped, watched tv, played card games.
thats what we did to kill time lol.
first day was purely a slacking day as bbq's on the 2nd day.

there's also a live concert by teng and brian in their room.
they really can sing, and they sing everywhere!
from the classroom to the chalet haha :D
and brian did many funny actions while singing hahaha
its hilarious.

took many unglam photos.
:D love it!

20 Jan.

went back to our room and we gossiped the whole night!
LOL yingting, huiyee, me and lik.
we cant stop laughing as the session was rly too funny.
and THAT huahyun was busy chatting on the phone with her friends!
huahyun hor?? xD

thanks to teng and all of them for standing outside the bathroom while i was bathing. lol and it wasnt as terrifying as i thought it would be.
didnt get to sleep much as my dearest yingting dont want us to off the lights.
lol ! she slept well but unlike me, i only can slp if the whole room's dark.
and when im finally falling asleep, the girls were like shouting outside our room.
in the end, i DIDNT slp! roar!!!!

but around 8 plus in the morning all of us finally went to slp.
5 ppl squeezing on a queen size bed.
IMAGINE THAT. me, yt, huiyee, huahyun, lik.
but we only slept like around 3 hrs. after that, we woke up and the 5 of us went to Changi Village to eat our lunch. :D

BBQ TIME

i didnt get to eat any prawns, stingray, sotong!
:( lol
oh yeah lik kept saying a word which is ' lames '.
one small little thing also ' lames~ ' lol.

21 Jan

After eating, we went upstairs and they started playing black jack.
Im too exhausted and went to the other room.
Teng and daniel were inside as usual and i fell asleep! for bout 1 hr.
Then, i heard many ppl screaming from Chunfeng's room. lol
went inside and cf told us the ghost story of our particular chalet.

He said a girl was sleeping upstairs and her friends were downstairs playing. She woke up cause she felt someone scratching her feet. :S and there were rly scratchmarks. like omg lol

It was already 12plus in the midnight.

We went to Changi Village after that, hoping to meet some AhGuas xD
saw some potential ones lol ~
brian, teng, daniel, xavier ate roti prata while me, huiyee, lik sat thr.
i almost fell asleep lol

when we returned to the chalet all of them were sleeping in ONE room.
-.- den they took all the blankets from the other rooms.
so, 7 of us had to squeeze in a room again. and hopefully freeze to death.
lol no la cf gave us his blanket which the guys let me n huiyee share.
den there were only 2 pillows.. for 7 of us yeah.

morning we woke up and packed up.
and home!

too lazy to post pics :S

2009-01-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

Graduation - Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels -

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels
Repeat (Chorus)

La, la, la, la?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la?

We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking
it's a time to flyRepeat 1 (3x)

2009-01-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

yup, so we got our Olvl results.
im not gonna say my results out but i definitely got the results i wanted n much better.
:D

so i wanna go NGEE ANN POLY.
i cant wait!
i want to go into the course i want :D

grats to all those ppl who scored v well.
esp my best friend Melissa Cheng!~
8 points for L1r5 :D
pro laaaa.
u deserve it!

2009-01-06T22:41:00.007+08:00

ok i haven't got the chance to list down my new year resolutions.
2009.
seriously I think 2008 is a v v bad year for me.
I spent too much thoughts and effort on useless things.

actually I am a really lazy person and im not afraid to admit it.
i heard that we're gonna take results most probably on 12 jan?
yup and i know it will arrive in the blink of an eye.
im rly not prepared for it but it will still come somehow.

i jus seriously hope for the best.
i hope i can get into the course i want.
i rly rly do.
:(

so in 2009, i will :
1) Work hard - for everything that I want coz it wont just drop down from the sky.
I MEAN IT.

2) Not think so much over trivial matters - at least i hope i can. Im a person who
thinks alot, in fact, too much and the feeling just sucks. I get nervous easily
and I seriously think if I dont try to control it, i'll get depression the next time.

3) Take good care of my body - I have a weak tummy and its causing me all kinds
of problems. I shouldnt eat too much sour n spicy food alr.

4) Exercise more - to remove all the fats!

5) Treat everybody well - Most importantly, sincerely. I look forward to
meeting new friends. But i hope they will be friendly and treat me the
same way I treat them.

6) Keep in touch with my old friends - They mean alot to me.

7) Dont get too bothered about people's criticism and be a forgiving persoan.

8) Get over things that alr happened.

9) Help people in need. :)

yeah i think thats all.
:) and i must fulfill it.

2009-01-04T23:17:00.001+08:00

yep its time to move on :D
thanks alot though.
for everything.
gm

2008-12-25T17:59:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D
Today's xmas and im very happy.
coz i got a new phone!
its Sony Ericsson W595.

:D and i changed my num too.
ask me if u want my num :)
im still using my old num now though.
for a few more days i guess.
im now a Starhub user!

but i'll send my new num to all my frens!
YIPEEEE UNLIMITED SMS.
wahahahahaas.
now i can reply v short msges alr!
like how ppl like to msg a smiley face or a letter.
lol like FINALLY ~

my cousin changed her phone to LG icecream phone.
its so pretty!
but it doesnt come with contract.
so nvm ~ my phone is equally nice :D
at least i think so wahaha
its my best xmas present!

and my blog song is very nice!
i like THE VERONICAS so much.
i rmb their first album was my 14th bday present.
:D

nth much to post alr..
lol ok BYES
enjoy yr day ppl ~

u are so cute!

2008-12-23T20:40:00.008+08:00

ok. its been a very very long time since i've last blogged.
been v busy w genting trip, work n my bro's 21st bday party.

13 dec ~ 15 dec

i shall start with my genting trip.
had a v fun time thr w my cousins n relatives.
esp with my cousin's cousins.
the 2 brothers called hongming n hongjun.

hongming's 10 mths old & hongjun's 4 yrs old!
so CUTE right :DD
they are super adorable.
i just love kids so much!

saw a god damn handsome n cute guy thr!
he smiled n wave and said bye.
omg ~ but i forgot his face shortly after. i have a v bad memory :(

at night me n my cousin saw him again.
he talked to us and i was like damn shocked!!!
its a great memory though.
had so much fun thr.

finally we took the bus home and the journey took 7 hrs.
watched Sky Of Love on the bus.
its such a nice n touching show and the male lead is so charming!
reminds me of the guy we saw at Genting.

hongming baby :D

this is the shop that the guy work in lol.
first world shopping mall :D
he's the one thr!
but cant see his face clearly ~

cutie again ~

first take - failed. haha hm's face so cute!

second take - success!

20 dec - My bro's 21st bday!
his party was held at my grandma house :D

KOR and me :DD

me n shurale. hahas
NO LA cheryl :D
we do that all the time :D

cousins for life <3

CKH. lol my cousin

cousins! calista where u?

there she is! hahas princess calis.

PRESENTS!

Mother side :)

seriously jus playin around with my bro's cello . muahaaha

FINALLY! :D shall post nxt time~

2008-12-11T22:11:00.001+08:00

Your Spiritual Number is Six

You bring communication and empathy into people's lives.
You are very open and understanding. You can accept difficult people.

Right now, your life is about being understood. You have trouble with your own vulnerability.
You end up playing the role of therapist in relationships, and it's hard to get people to ask about you.

You will take time out for those you love, even if you don't have much time. You can't help but be nurturing.
You are very responsible and ethical. You deliver on your promises.

What's" Your Spiritual Number?

2008-12-10T20:42:00.003+08:00

HELLO PPL.
IM GOING TO GENTING THIS SAT MORNING.
hahas its a last min decision though.
hehehe & im goin w my cousin, cheryl.

both our parents are not going :)
coz we're going w our aunt and her family whom are my cousin's cousins.

FREEDOM !!

i'll be back on monday night.
so.. dont miss me too much!
-.- haha just joking.
bought many clothes recently :D

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.
so happy now.
hahas.
and i guess i wont be posting this few days alr.
coz im busy at work.

tmr's my jie, jolene's bday.
she's my cousin and we're going to KSTER to sing.
cheryl's coming too coz they're sisters. hhaha
its been soo long la.

yes i CANT WAIT.
HAHAH.
i cant wait to sing and i cant wait to go GENTING.
i jus wanna get out of Spore for awhile.
hahas.

lalalalalalala~
misss all my friends!

its been so long since i felt so happy!
WOOHOO!

byes :)

2008-12-05T20:12:00.009+08:00

yesterday was a fun fun day!
hahas.
went shopping w yingting, huiyee, huahyun n lik.
but lik went home in the middle of the shopping trip.guess he's too bored o.O
took many photos :D

but there's too many & it'll take me a million yrs to post.
so i've decided to post the few that i like most.
and i'll jus put a link to hy's post.
lol

her post consists of many many unglam pictures of us and majority's mine.
but i guess all of u have seen this side of me before.
hahahaha.

2008-12-03T23:13:00.005+08:00

《如燕》

词曲：陈佳明

编曲：Terence Teo

制作人：陈佳明

演唱：Olivia Ong

愿意合上眼才能美梦无边

别让悔熏乌了从前

也许碎片才能让回忆展颜

何妨瓷花拼凑明天

谁带我寻获幸福的模

却自己谜中困锁

谁为我留下缱绻的天涯

信物是抹晚霞

Chorus:

思念如燕它飞舞舌尖

若是真爱配尝几分苦甜

意念婆娑时间里推磨

追随到何处才结果

燕如针线在青空缝编

几幅女红将以泪缀点

誓言斑驳情雾只是经过

风雨中且让我盈步婀娜

the lyrics look so difficult at first glance but im glad i know how to read all the words =)
this song is just so beautiful !

2008-12-03T22:40:00.007+08:00

戴阳天

charming =D

he's so compatible w Jeanette Aw in Little Nyonya.

and i love the theme song of the show.

its my blog's song =D

tmr going out to shop again!!

bought lots of clothes recently.

heeeee wheeeeeeeeee ~~~

blog's rotting.

lol

2008-11-22T20:56:00.004+08:00

i miss everybody so much.
my classmates, my friends, everyone.
life's boring.
i miss school.
I MISS EVERYTHING.
):
esp u

What Your Cupcake Says About You

At parties, you tend to be a social butterfly. You enjoy making conversation and making sure everyone is having fun.

You hardly have any restraint. You only hold yourself back when absolutely necessary.

The most important thing in your life is love.

You are laid back, flexible, and easy to get along with. To know you is to care for you.

The Cupcake Test

so true!

2008-11-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

its alright.

time to move on :D

and i seriously dont like ppl to know my thoughts so easily!!
i must learn how to hide my feelings well.
i hope so :X

& i'll rmb u

2008-11-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BDAY BRIAN FEILOU~

today's brian's bday so yt, teng n me went to celebrate w him.

brian dont usually celebrate his birthday but we dont care.

hahaha.

we went to eat our lunch at pizza hut at kovan

Curry Zazzle Baked Rice! :D

after lunch, we took train to plaza singapura.

bought tickets for Madagascar 2 !

the movie was hilarious and cute like I expected.

laughed alot and totally enjoyed myself :)

after the movie we went home ~

took some photos :)

YINGTING!

BRIAN THE BDAY BOY!

TENG!

i cant stop thinkin..........

2008-11-15T21:42:00.005+08:00

13 MOSQUITO BITES.

nvm this is still not the most yet.
i rmb i had 20+ mosquito bites at chalet a few yrs back.

argh i HATE HATE HATE mosquitoes!

mosquito bites are bad enough for most ppl.
but if you're like me, you can walk outside and have 5 mosquito bites in just a few minutes.
arghhh.

How to Prevent Mosquito Bites:
1. Eat more Garlic
This doesnt sound like a good plan ...

2. Choose the Proper Clothing - A great way to prevent mosquito bites is to wear pants and long-sleeved shirts.
I live in Singapore.... hot humid weather

3. Avoid Going Out at Night
This sounds okay....

4. Avoid Pleasant Fragrances -
Mosquitoes will be much more interested in the people that smell tasty to them.
ARGH~

I SHALL DESTROY YOU.
you blardyy...................

gm.
its totally ironic.

imagine tellin yr c that u like someone else....

2008-11-11T20:26:00.005+08:00

Olvls officially ended!
lol.
SO HAPPY~

when to cut my hair and ended up lookin like a mushroom.
lol the guys keep laughin at me laaa.
gonna hide at home alr.
hahaha no la.

we went job huntin after that. me, nicks, cf, wilson.
tortured by my freakin shoes.
blisters all over!
went to town.

metro robinsons everywhere to look for jobs.
filled in many forms.
interviews~ lol
hope they will call us soon :D

so exhausted tdy.
didnt get enough slp ytd.
im gonna slp alot alot tonight!!
:D

my bill's coming soon :S
i dare not seeee!
:(

& im going crazy~~~~
argh.
y-o-s-c!
dont forget me.

gm

2008-11-10T15:53:00.000+08:00

when will u ever know?

gm

2008-11-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

i miss all my friends so much :(
i wish 4d will nvr separate ~
hais.

gm

2008-11-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

im going out w my cousins tmr!!
=DD
happy happy~~

and i cant find a suitable blogskin zzz

2008-11-07T20:15:00.004+08:00

OLVLs are almost over!
just one more one more mcq paper =D
all the exams are driving me crazy.

ytd had fun w nicks n cf n nick's bro kenneth.
went to watch quantum of solace!
hahaas.

i got fever at night.
but after midnight i was alright!

spent the whole night playing n chatting.
RISK is fun!
chatting was fun too coz we were like laughing the whole night.
i almost succeeded in not slping the whole night!

morning we went to eat prata den go home~
and i slept for 9hrs.
just woke up =D

IM GONNA change my blogskin!!!!!!!!!!
YEAHHHHH

im going to revive my blog!

gm

2008-09-26T14:11:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder whats the definition of friends.
some friends are just so fake.
they only need you when they want something.
when they dont need you, they just push you aside without any warning.
simply treating you like a piece of shit.
i've also learnt that treating somebody nicely doesn't mean they would do too.
hypocrite.

& it doesnt mean that you are very clever even if you are good in sciences.
character is also very important.
seriously.
people without character would not succeed in life too.
yuck.

& thanks to all the people who wished me happy birthday.
i really appreciate it =D
im glad to know i still have so many friends.
thanks guys.

and... OLVL is approaching!
i need to really work hard for my maths and science!

jiayou!
going night study soon..

2008-09-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!
WHEEE =D

im officially 16!
yeah yeah yeah lol.
=D

happy bday to melissa tan too!

=DD

i love everybody!!

2008-09-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

1. the person who tagged me is?
Chang Lik Zhing.

2. your relationship with him?
Friends.

3.your 5 impression of them?
funny, joker,

4. the most memorable thing she/he had done with you?
being nice to me? LOL.

5.the most memorable thing they had said to you?
hmmm..

6.Would you accept them as your lover?
nopes.

7.if he/she becomes your lover, what does he/she have to improve on?
Nothing.

8.would he/she ever become your enemy?
Don't think so.

9. (repeat question)
-.-

10.what is it you want to tell them now?
u pig! zz

11. your overall impression of them now?
okay lor lol.

12.how do you think people around you feel about you?
They think I'm good to bully. lol

13. what do you like about yourself?
Hmm. Compassionate?

14.on the contrary, what do you hate about yourself?
Indeceisive

15.the most ideal person you want to be is?
Bill gate's wifey.

16.for people that care and like you, say something to them.
thanks so much for being there :)

17. pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about you

1. MEL
2. yingting
3. huiyee
4. lik
5. teng
6. xavier
7. melvin
8. aloy
9. cheryl
10. jolene

18.who's no.6 having relationship with?
hmmm. c.h.a... hahas just joking =)

19.is no.9 female or male?]
Female. :)

20.if no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
they dunno each other lol.

21. what is no. 2 studying about?
O levels.

22.what was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Today :)

23. what kind of music bands does no.8 like?
I have no idea :)

24.does no.1 have any siblings?
Yep, a younger sis.

25.will you woo no.3?
-.-
26. how about 7?
-.-

27. is no.4 single?
Yups.

28. what is the surname of no. 5?
teng.

29. what is a hobby of no.10?
singing?

30. do no.5 and no.9 get along well?
they dont know each other lol.

31. where is no.2 studying at?
Nchs.

32. talk about something for no.1
She is my best friend, always. =D

33. have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
nopes.

34. where does no.9 lives?
tampines!

35.what colour do no.4 like?
black? lol i dont know.

36. are no 1 and 5 best friends?
Nopes.

37. does no.1 have any pets?
nopes =)

38.is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
LOL!

39. what is no.10 doing now?
sleeping? =)

2008-09-21T14:59:00.004+08:00

You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen.
Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine.
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the Dancing Queen!

watched MAMMA MIA yesterday.
its was so nice and a very sweet movie =DD
all the old songs from ABBA are fabulous.
cant stop singing.
hahaas

bsky, thanks for the wonderful celebration!
YAM.
=D

what are we?

Mamma mia, here I go again.
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed you :)

hxn~

2008-09-12T23:16:00.004+08:00

& to my dearest melly.
i'll always be there ya.
mwas.
i promise.

& to my dearest bel.
i dno what happened.
but i'll always be there too.
mwas.
love jiemeis =)

you two mean so much to me.
so much so much.

2008-09-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

im just so unimportant.
always forgotten.
always taken for granted.
=D
=D
=D